Oil on Belgian linen canvas.
W 70 x H 70 x D 2.2 cm.
“I was really afraid to paint from inner vision only, I tried, Paul stressed me as well, but I was never satisfied, I always had to control with my intellect how and what I painted. I was bowing at the altar of alcohol as well, my wildness never found balance. I realised I need to balance these forces in me. I asked for being alone and yet I had a hard time to bear it. This time I know so deeply, I need to paint from my being alone, non objectively, channeling from utter freedom. I paint with left hand to help the process. I’m still afraid of my full blown visions, and letting go and surrender, it’s still a big fight to awaken, but this time I will make history by touching millions of souls with love and transformation.” Contemplation letters about being VvG.